....to what do I rest in?

So I've been kinda busy lately with just "stuff" pulling me in every direction. I have the practical things on one side, ambition on another, and my heart fending for the scraps. Seeking out some sense of joy out of all this seems a bit much. I really am not in the mood for this at the moment. You know if someone else was sharing with me these particular concerns in their life I don't think I'd have too much difficulty sharing hope and the reality of the nature of their situation. A reminder I would serve with love...a reminder that the greater the cost through tests and trials the greater the value in your situation. There are so many dreadful cliches but this one has rang true countless times for me already. I can say I'm not chasing any particular feeling but more of a deliberate posture in my heart. I know who I am....it's just a matter of being that while I'm awake.