So i find it interesting when everything works as it should yourself caring for someone and they make a choice which to them seems to be just on their behalf and you soon both realize the grip their actions inadvertently have on your heart.I tend to not find myself as a dramatic person but this time it got my attention. It sure is easy to sling blame as well as other things in amidst frustration but when i choose this course i often find myself lacking in the desired outcome.
I really just want to be a better me. So as good intentions will always leave you lacking, I suggest for a moment to be real and see how that works out for ya.....its not any easier at first but it actually has a payoff,TRUST.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
....my lack of visits here exposes my current lifestyle. At what point can this all be feasible, does everyone's hearts dart in a thousand directions? I'm beginning to see that rest is more of a mindset not a certain time to sleep in till. It's been a trying month for the limits of my bodies facilities but i don't want to come across as complaining or ungrateful. Two nights ago after my class ended early I b-lined it to the ocean. It's a smaller beach but I've grown a strong affection for it. I joke with myself in believing it shares the same sentiment towards me.... but how could it not care for me as it sends a fresh wind from the evenings horizon and soothes me with steady wave to wash away the cares of the day. After our visits i always leave in appreciation for this visions offer of sanity. I think I'll just stop here with the grin this writing has left me with.